Thursday, January 29, 2009

Sonoran

The first time I set foot in a desert in my life was in April 2004 when I went to Tucson. I remember the first feeling the landscape evoked. It was a feeling of sadness at how desolate it looked. I had only lived in regions of India and the US that would be called lush.

It was not like the reaction was a total surprise to me. I had seen deserts before in photographs and movies, whether it be the Thar desert or deserts of the middle east in Indian movies, or the deserts of the American southwest in cowboy movies. Each time, I remember having a milder version of the same reaction. The reaction was just much stronger in intensity when I was finally staring at a desert in real life. How could an area become so sandy, dusty and bereft of the kind of lush greenery that makes the human heart happy? How could the people who call such a region home not do something to make it better?

I know that my perception is a pretty common one that would probably be expressed by a large majority of people who look at the desert. However, the other thing I know today is that the only reason for this state is that ignorance is also a pretty common trait in a large majority of people. In my ignorance, I was looking at the landscape from a completely human-centric view. The only reason humans find lush topography more appealing is because of our arboreal roots. There is nothing intrinsically "better" about a tropical landscape when human preference is taken out of the equation. The mistake I think we humans make is that we think of the desert the same way we think of a concrete jungle. They both lack the kind of greenery that appeals to most humans. So we assume they are both barren areas, lacking the kind of diverse biological life that could be found in thick forests or woods.

It takes a closer look to realize that the desert is nothing like a concrete jungle. The desert is literally buzzing and teeming with life. I was fortunate enough in my life to have come to this realization. Yes, the scarcity of water may have driven this life to evolve in a direction that we humans need to take a second look to notice. But once you see it, it is everywhere. Saguaros, prickly pears, creosote bush, pinyon pines, cactii, agaves, palms, mesquites, cottontails, jackrabbits, bighorn sheep, rock squirrels, lizards, tortoises, rattlesnakes, spiders, scorpions, wrens, ravens, swallowtails, the list is endless.

It is the Sonoran desert that I need to thank for my realization. It happened very quietly and very slowly. In my several visits to Arizona, my eyes opened gradually to the beauty of the landscape. I can't even remember when it was that the rugged majesty of it all finally sunk in fully. Between April 2004 to December 2006, I flew to Tucson somewhere between 15 to 20 times. Two of those visits were monthlong vacations. I drove around a bit during all those visits, not just in the Sonoran desert in and around Tucson, but also around Arizona. I visited places like the Grand Canyon and the Petrified Forest. I took a detour through scenic Sedona rather than take the interstate to Flagstaff. I've come to love the geography of the entire state so much that it has become one of my favorite regions of the world.

Would I want to live there? I don't know. It is a very harsh environment for humans. We humans got very used to technology, and wouldn't survive too long in the wild. In case the technological infrastructure breaks down, the desert would be one of the least forgiving of the wild environs out there. There is also a second reason I hesitate. The tenacity displayed by life adapted to the desert may give one the false impression that the desert is a very resilient environment. In fact, deserts are very fragile ecosystems. Life does thrive in them amidst unbelievable odds, but it takes very little effort by humans to change that from unbelievable to insurmountable.
Not that humans can't do this or aren't doing this in other places. We do have the tenacity and will to destroy life wherever we find it. We would just have to work that much harder to destroy a rainforest, is all.

Also, the rainforests and the pandas of the world have a slight advantage when it comes to appealing to the human heart. Deserts, like reptiles or arachnids, are the ugly stepchildren. The people who look at the desert and see nothing but empty wasteland are everywhere. Just turn on the TV and have a look at any extreme sports channels. There may be some human powered options like snowboarding or skateboarding, but pretty soon you'll come across folks in heavily modified motorized vehicles either trying to set some speed record or careen down impossible grades. The most common places for such activities are either playas or canyonsides. Desert races like the Baja 1000 consider their courses to be relatively barren terrain. Barren? The desert?

This disdain for the desert has a long history that precedes the recent ORV craze. Most governments conduct their nuclear weapons testing and other military operations in deserts. Got a shitload of radioactive waste to dispose of? Why, there's all that desert! I am ashamed to think that at one point in my life, I have shared this view.

Not anymore. Today, I cannot see a desert in the world and not think it is beautiful. Yes, even Antarctica. I recently happened to watch some video footage of Rajasthan after a long time. I saw the dusty Thar desert against the Aravalli mountains in the background, and was struck by how stunningly beautiful it looked. An old friend who went to BITS Pilani for his undergraduate degree used to rave about the beauty of the Thar desert. I used to think he was a nut. Turns out I was right. It takes a special kind of nut to love the desert. But it feels good to be one.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

RU-3

This week is either the nadir after which things will look up, or my resolutions will just peter away and there won't even be an update next week. Work continues to peak sporadically throwing a wrench in any attempt at a schedule. But I hope that writing this update down every week, however bad it looks, may actually help me.

- Running: Again, I ran just once in the middle of the week. I tried the alternating approach and ran for a total of 20 minutes, but the time I ran at 6 mph only ended up being 8 minutes! But it left me much less winded this way, So maybe I can push myself more easily next time and make it to 30 or 40 minutes first and then try to expand on the interval of time I run at the faster speed.

- Weight: Has gone up to 203.5 lbs. I have never crossed 201 lbs. This is a new high (low) for me! Death to munchies!!

- Book and textbook: Didn't touch either. I just have to make a start here. I know it is just a case of starting trouble. If I convince myself not to watch the Australian open or something or the other on TV after dinner, I will be able to do this!! Alternately, if the workload reduces in the coming weeks, I will be able to take advantage of the lull between meetings at work to get in some reading instead of surfing the internet. Just one hour a day. Baby steps. Don't know why this is even difficult. Reading books is something I enjoy. I blame the internet, although I love the internet. Damn you internet.

- Blog: I somehow convinced myself that writing a draft and modifying it over time is a good way to write good blog posts. I know there are people who do this. I know there are advantages to putting something away and looking at it with fresh eyes the next day. It is just not working for me, and I was wrong to think that I should try this. For me, it is out-of-sight out-of-mind. Moreover, there is a human tendency to get jaded by repeated exposure. What looks like a great line on first reading looks hackneyed on the third reading. This tendency may be what makes good art critics good at their work, but it totally sucks when reviewing your own work. I should stick to my own way of doing things. Hammering something out in a single sitting and letting it stay that way. I may look back and cringe later, but at least I got something out. Proofreading should be the extent of revision.

- Comments: I am getting better at this. Earlier, when I started commenting, I would have an obsessive desire to check back on the comments to see if anyone responded. Or when I post something on this blog, to check back to see if anyone commented. I have consciously let this habit go, and I can see it has helped. The last couple of comments others posted on this blog had been sitting in moderation for a few days. I had just not checked for comments every day. I have also stopped checking back on blog posts where I have made comments. The urge is just not there anymore to see if anyone responded, or to continue the comment discussion. This frees up some much needed time to actually compose a new post (although there is an unrelated problem of inertia and musal absence that complicates things a bit). When I set up this blog, I made a similar decision to not make the blog about traffic or comments. I did not set up any page visit counters or other analytics because I didn't want to obsess over them. I also set up the commenting scheme such that it is not easy to have a continous discussion between commentors on a single blog post. The only reason I have comments is so that others could comment here to correct any egregious errors in my post, and thus reduce the chance of any stray reader being misled by my faulty reasoning. It's not that comments are unwelcome, but I don't want to either actively seek them, or write stuff that makes it easier to get them.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Take Your Clothes Off When You Dance - Song Shuffle Question Meme

Got this one from Rana. Sounds like my kind of silliness.

1. Put your iPod or i tunes library, or MP3 player etc... on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down as the answer no matter how silly it sounds. (The silliness is rather the point.)
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got this from.

I'm also going to skip the tagging part. Feel free to participate if you wish. I've also skipped the foreign language songs.

This is from the meager list of around 300 songs on my iTunes. I uploaded the CDs I owned to iTunes a couple of years back, but I had stopped buying CDs around 5 years back due to my nomadic career arc, and had started using public libraries for audio CDs. So this list makes me sound like much more of a metalhead than I really am today.

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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Planet Caravan (Black Sabbath)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Take It As It Comes (The Doors)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Hey You (Pink Floyd)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
1 stp Klosr (Linkin Park)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Someone In London (Godsmack)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Trilogy: The Sunlit Path/La Mer de La Mer/Tomorrow's Story Not the Same (Mahavishnu Orchestra)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Hit The Lights (Metallica)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Russian Intermezzo (The Odessa Balalaikas)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Mother People (Frank Zappa & The Mothers of Invention)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
A Rush Of Blood To The Head (Coldplay)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
No Remorse (Metallica)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Moon Baby (Godsmack)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Talkin' Bout A Revolution (Tracy Chapman)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Hand Of Doom (Black Sabbath)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Confusion (Alice In Chains)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
I Remember (Hamza El Din)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Back On The Train (Phish)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
What Is The Ugliest Part Of Your Body? (Frank Zappa & The Mothers of Invention)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Smooth (Santana)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Situation (Godsmack)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Love Walks In (Van Halen)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Goodbye To Romance (Ozzy Osbourne)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Twist (Phish)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
The Battle Of Evermore (Led Zeppelin)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Money (Pink Floyd)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Paranoid (Black Sabbath)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Dimples (John Lee Hooker)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
I Don't Know (Ozzy Osbourne)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
What Is And What Should Never Be (Led Zeppelin)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Take Your Clothes Off When You Dance (Frank Zappa & The Mothers of Invention)

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

RU-2

The resolution update at the end of week 2:

I was doing so bad, even the update is delayed by 2 days! Work was so hectic last week that everything went to hell. This week, I'm getting more used to being overworked, and still managing to do some other stuff.

- Running: I've run only once last week. I couldn't even manage 13 minutes this time. I took 4 mins to warm up at 4 mph and then increased the speed to 6 mph - and could only run for 10 minutes at 6 mph. Maybe I should try a strategy of alternating 6 mph and 4 mph runs and try to push the total time run at 6 mph first. Then I could try to reduce the 4 mph intervals gradually until I am running at 6 mph for the entire duration.

- Weight: Has gone up from 199 to 201 lbs. This always happens to me. I gain and lose weight faster than I am apparently supposed to. When I start losing weight, it is not as a result of something drastic. I just cut down on some of the junk food and I start dropping a few lbs each week. But when I get down to around 190 lbs, I get stuck there. The same holds for weight gain. Last week I was working late into the night a few times, and munching on chips and salsa a lot more than usual while also guzzling coke, and the pounds just added on.

- Book: Have completed the first chapter on variation under domestication, and am now on to variation in the natural environment. I loved how thorough and methodical Darwin's thinking is. But the verbosity is something I am having to plough through and endure. Also, there is something about Victorian obsequiousness that I find incredibly irritating. It may have something to do with the role excessive deference plays in ossifying classism. I also had to cringe at every use of the word "Savages", and am bracing myself for more references to "Savage" races. My wife pointed out John Whitfield's blog to me over the weekend. I remember reading about it on Bora's blog post on the topic, but hadn't checked out John's blog earlier. Good thing, coz I don't think I would've been able to keep up with the pace being set. But I do agree with John's suggestion on modernizing the language. In fact, if I was a biology major, this would've been an extremely fun project to do!

- Textbook: Did not touch it.

- Blog: Have not made any progress on the ones I had drafts for. But I really do want to put a post together for the Carnival of the Arid. I realize that it is already the 20th and I have less than 10 days to do that. I also realize that I need to do it this week if Chris is to have enough time to add my entry to the carnival. The way I am used to doing things, the only way I may get this done is if I sit and hammer it out in one stretch.

- Comments: Still doing good on this front. But this is probably the easiest one to keep.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

RU-1

I want to jot down an update of this year's resolutions at the end of each week. Seeing how badly I'm doing will probably shame me into keeping up. At least, that's the hope.

- Running: I've run twice since Jan 1st. Both times at the speed of 6 mph. The first time I could run for 10 minutes. The second time 13 minutes. My usual pace is 5 mph, at which speed I can run 15 to 20 minutes. I want to be able to run at least half an hour at the speed of 6 mph. Then I want to increase the speed to 7.5 mph, and learn to maintain that as the pace at which I would run for any length of time.

- Weight: Has gone up to 199 lbs again. Have been cooking really good food recently, and obviously have been eating much more than 2 runs in the last 10 days can do anything about.

- Book: Didn't touch it

- Textbook: Ditto

- Blog: Have 3 posts sitting in draft. One on atheism. One on environmentalism. One on the journey series. I envisioned the journey series to be in 3 parts. Got the outline for all 3 and started fleshing out the first one. I'm halfway through just the first part - and it's already around 1800 words long. I'm clearly living up to the tag line of this blog. It might be a good idea to get the post on atheism finished first instead.

- Comments: Not much of an increase, but started being a little more active on scienceblogs, where I have always spent the largest chunk of my lurking time. Will start commenting at the other regular haunts over time.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Resolutions

Some of the things I have been planning to do, the declaration of which fits in nicely with this custom we have got of saying them out loud at the beginning of each year.

- Run a half-marathon.
The goal is to run the New York marathon in 2010. One way to get guaranteed entry is to run a set of qualifying races in 2009. The idea is to choose a half-marathon as one of the qualifying runs.

- Lose 25 to 30 pounds.
This is related to the above goal. I have been at a steady 170 lbs in my early 20s when I used to run 3 miles every day. Then I got out of school, started working, my social circle shifted to folks with mostly sedentary habits, I started smoking, and in a quick few years, everything went out of control. It has now been a few years since I quit smoking. Cold turkey. Regulating the bad parts of my diet has been more of a yo-yo. But I'm finally getting somewhere. After a few years of being in the 200 lbs range, my current weight is vacillating between 190 and 195. The idea is to get it to the 165 to 170 lbs range. I'm hoping this can happen just with the added running regimen without too drastic a change to my current diet.

- Read a book each month.
I have really, really, lost the reading habit when it comes to books. There was a time when I would finish a book each day. Those days are long gone. I've had five or six books I bought a year back that have been sitting patiently waiting for me to read them. I've just started the first one. Darwin's Origin of Species. I've only finished reading 30 pages so far. I want to start reading a book for at least a half hour each day.

- Re-read textbooks of basic math and sciences.
I have been reading a university freshman level introductory basic biology textbook for a few months now. "Life: The Science of Biology" by Purves et al. It is an awesome textbook. I have finished reading 6 chapters so far. I wish my basic textbooks in middle school and high school were half as good. Then I would not have focused on math and physics exclusively and ignored other interesting fields of science like chemistry, biology and geology. My childhood textbooks were so crappy, and so solely aimed at giving information geared towards passing exams that except math and physics all other fields of science appeared to be just a series of dry facts. There was no context or narrative of chemical, geological or life processes that were presented as a story within which the dry facts were embedded. Now I am slowly filling in the gaps in my knowledge of all the other fields of science that I have neglected in my childhood. I aim to find really good textbooks that would be a delight to read, and fill my deficits from the ground up. I would also like to find good textbooks of math and physics to brush up on my basics, but this is a lesser priority.

- Comment more often at regular haunts
The last few years, I have been reading a lot of science blogs and liberal blogs, but I rarely used to comment at any of them. This year, I want to change that and become a more vocal member at the various places where I've learnt a lot by mental osmosis all this time without giving anything back. Many of these blogs have so much traffic now that I may actually change my mind on this one and start commenting at newer up and coming blogs instead. Either way, I want to aim for a less silent presence.

- Blog more often
I've had a lot of things to say on my mind, but I have fallen out of the habit of putting my thoughts down in words. As I've finally started commenting a little bit last year, I realized that I could actually start blogging too if I put the same energy towards composing my own posts. But I'm more of a reactive person in that most of my thoughts are a response to something I read. So if I sit down to write a post, I draw a blank. I want to change that situation by jotting down my thoughts somewhere and periodically tying them up into a single post.

- Bridge the gap between online and the outside life
As I've started spending more time online reading interesting stuff, one thing I've noticed is that I find real life socializing much less satisfying in terms of conversational content. There was a point of time a few years back when I couldn't stand the next conversation about some sport, or some home price, or some mundane topic or the other that the entirety of socializing within my age group and immigrant demographic seemed to consist of. So I withdrew away from such groups. But the people whose conversations and thoughts I found interesting were a bunch of pseudonymous online personalities. This seems to be changing a little recently with the increasing use of social tools like facebook where people are interacting online more frequently with their real names and details. I have found some of the blogospheric pseudonymous folks that I knew to actually have a facebook presence with their real details. This is encouraging in the sense that if I stick to the two previous resolutions, it may be possible to transition from online interactions to real world interactions with people with whom I share a lot of interests, both personally and politically.